A memoir about one man's journey to connect with his absentee musician father, ultimately redefining what family really means

In 1971, Louise Braufman, a white, Jewish, former ballerina, chose to have a child with famous black jazz musician Roy Ayers, fully expecting and agreeing to his absenteeism. In this highly original memoir, their son, Nabil Ayers, recounts a life spent living with the aftermath of that decision, and his journey to build an identify of his own despite and in spite of his father's absence.

Growing up, Nabil only meets his father a handful of times. But Roy's influence is strong, showing itself in Nabil's instinctual love of music, and later, in the music industry-Nabil's chosen career path. By turns hopeful-wanting to connect with the man who passed down his genetic predisposition for musical talent-and frustrated with Roy's continued emotional distance, Nabil struggles with how much DNA can define a family.

Unable to fully connect with Roy, Nabil ultimately discovers the existence of several half-siblings as well as a paternal ancestor who was enslaved. Following these connections, Nabil meets and befriends the descendant of the plantation owner, which, strangely, paves the way for him to make meaningful connections with extended family he never knew existed.

Despite his absentee father, Nabil, through sheer will and a drive to understand his roots, redefines what family truly is.